It took me just 2 1/2 nights per book for the first 2 - couldnt put it down and lived my day to pick it up! Ive read the third one slower so it didnt run out but alas it now has! Empty and lost is what it feels like!! I have to start reading them again now because I need that Christian fix; ELJames was right; you become obsessed, possessed and it changes your life; totally greysessed! My stomach somersaults everytime I think of the book - why cant he be real? If he was I suppose we wouldnt want him as much but it would be certainly be good to try it!!
Ive always believed in life after death and i think or im pretty sure ive been visited in my dreams and shown the way by different weird things happening and coming into my head. In 1995 around this time i was 9 weeks pregnant with my third baby-i miscarried him. I say him because now i know. My sister is very spiritually enlightened and aware. Ever since i lost the baby she lit a candle every year for him; unbeknown to me. The other day she had a vision whilst washing up of a shrivelled sad foetus and it made her go pray and light a candle. The following morning he came to her-she was wide awake and had just got back into bed from the toilet. He was my other son joe’s height with beautiful curly dark hair, like my 2nd son bens’ and looked like joe. He was about 16. Infact he would have been 16 November 2011. He smiled at her and gave her all the love he could and reassurance that he had grown in his angel world and was happy there! The name Joshua came through to my sister-i never told her what we would call the baby-only something from the bible; our names were Joshua & Kaleb or Bethany for a girl. Im so happy that Joshua is good and, i’m sure, looking out for me, his brothers and his sister.
Now i just pray for my visit…..
And here we r again!! The end of a year and all good thoughts for a new one! Will they happen? I doubt it, so see me in a year!!
Today was a sad day. I learnt last nite that Nathan died-he was only 18; in such tragic circumstances; so unfair. I knew NAthan through my Ben and college. He parked at mine every day and every morning during term he’d come through the back door. He was the sweetest, kindest, caring young person I have come across. I can’t really get my head round it….WHY him??